Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Today, MsChng showed all of us our percentage for the previous Class Test.
And man... guess what ?
It was a disappointment :(
i got the lowest percentage among all 80+ students.
It's sucha disgrace.
Who must i blame ? Me,Myself & i.
I chose not to study hard at first.
i took it as NOTHING important at all.
feeling kindof regret.........
i'm so sad! :'(
feel like crying my heart out.
anyway, i did lah when i was bathing :/
thinking back bout how badly i did for my test.
arghhhhh.
Ms.C is giving a Re-Test tmr.
i mugged a little just now but i think it's never enough so...
after blogging & some chatting online, i'm gonna face the books.
how hard it is doesn't matter anymore.
I'm just hoping for better grades.
and i really wanna improve, do you believe ?
some people left their books out but they managed to score well.
me ? In the least, i studied abit of it yet my marks is the lowest of all.
i got a shock in class this morning.
Sighs.
During EFC, Ms Lai was quite angry with us for not presenting our project.
some are halfway done and some have not even start to work on it yet.
My group promised to hand up our work today but Mic&Pris was absent so i was alone.
everything is not with me so i failed to present too.
I don't mean to treat EFC lesson as nothing but it's really the fact that it's not even important at all.
to me is like, what's efc all about ? does it even concerns my future ? NO.
BUT....
afterall, Ms lai talked bout it and said that actually...
if we fail to work on the stuffs that she gave us,
if we fail to attend lessons regularly,
if we fail to pay attention in class,
most importantly, IF WE FAIL TO HELP OURSELVES when she's working so hard to help us out....
we will be the one the lose out in the end.
SEE. Then i realised that i've been neglecting this lesson.
Treating it as nothing, not giving a damn about it...
hecking care of the work that she gave us...
thinking that she sucks all the time because of her attitude..
I was so damn wrong.
It's soooo bloody important and if i fail EFC, means im gonna fail the whole course.
I can't imagine this happening to me please.
i don't want this to happen onto me :(
I wanted v much for this course and my dad helped alot to get me into this course.
I can't afford to lose out.
I don't want to disappoint anyone anymore.
I have to really motivate myself from now onwards.
ahhhhhhhh.
I must not put books aside already.
have to face the books every now and then.
and currently, tests are coming up this whole week.
practical, theory....
Projects.... Sigh.
My mind totally went blank when comes to Efc Project.
I've got no idea how to do and what i'm supposed to do.
I don't even understand! :(
Prisc&i gna work on it tmr during EFC lesson.
hope it'll be successful. Zzzzz.
Then we had our HFC practical test on Foot Massage.
i can't deny that i did look at others lah, zzzz.
I forgot some of the steps but nano didn't mind about how i massaged for her.
Lol.
After school, went with Limin&Kermise.
Limin wants to wait for her bf so Kermise&i took 72 back to Hougang.
Met him at H.Inter then bought BubbleTea, walked to 119 bus-stop.
while waiting for the bus, we somehow had a tiff & he was angry with me.
i almost cried but i didn't.
In the bus, he gave in to me and tried to make me smile....
at last, i thought i'll be Okay but when he called me to ask if i'm still angry.
i merely said No, Orh, WHAT ???????!
he thinks that my last word was shouting at him.
i talk damn loud only, ok?
if you insists that i was shouting at you then so be it lor.
Because of one SMS, things turned out like this.
Yadah2, i know i did not keep my promise.
but still, do you need to tell me off or not ?
Somemore wants to delete the msg that i promised you.
Want me to go ahead and text guys.
what else ?!
Every of your word affects me alot.
then you always promised to go home at 12am when i asked you to but at times, you didn't.
should i delete what you sent as well?
do you know i cried after reading what you sent to me?
it's like..so hurting...
you sounded as if it's enough of giving in already.
you sounded as if it's really my fault.
you sounded as if i love breaking promises.
so i think from now onwards, whoever text us..
just reply. why care about promise & all ?
I'll just do whatever i want.
YOU DON'T NEED TO DELETE WHAT I SENT AT ALL LOR.YOUR ATTITUDE IS CHANGING JUST BECAUSE YOU'VE BEEN GIVING IN TO ME ALL THESE WHILE........can't stand my princess attitude then just voice out your unhappiness to me.
or maybe you can stop giving in to me.
i guess i was too much.
please don't apologise to me for this matter.
You don't have to...... it was my fault.
It has come to an end.
5:59 AM,♥
